74 Vendetta - A different life
How do you want to lead your life?
I want to lead it differently from now. I really do. I want everything to change. I am regretting everything that happened to me that made me what I am now. If I could turn back time, I would change it at the point when I'm 16. I would start all over again from then and choose a different path altogether.
To say that one would never change a thing of the past is bullshit. Somewhere, sometime, everyone would like to change some part of their life.
Time machine, bring me back please.
73 Vendetta - A Civil War and Strained Relationships
Wife and Mother, Mother-in-law and husband....when does it all end?
It's like a legacy, or something hereditary. My grandma did not treat my mum nice enough, and now it's her daughter-in-laws' turn.....What the hell? Then my dad did not have a good relationship with his mother-in-law. And now, it's my turn (same case for my brother)
It's really hard to explain. Maybe one good turn deserves another makes the best sense. In this case, it's one bad relationship deserves another.
I've never heard a case about mother-in-laws getting along with daughter-in-laws. Husbands and mother-in-laws alike. Everyday, it's like a civil war going on, and I'm just stuck in between, as a victim.
Like the Beginning Lyrics in G'N'R song "Civil war" : "WHAT WE'VE GOT HERE, IS FAILURE TO COMMUNICATE, some man you just can't reach, so you get what we had here last week, which is the way he wants. WELL, HE GETS IT!.........I don't like it, anymore than you men" AMEN TO THAT.
72 Vendetta - Nightmares that haunted me for years
I'll never forget them..Even now, they still haunt me.
Ever since I was young, I've had the very same nightmare every time I ran a fever. Even as I grow older, till now, I still have them. And everytime, I just break out in cold sweat.
It starts like this (young version) : I'm being chased by a rock ball in between 2 walls. When it was finally gonna crush me, I drop into a hole and wakes up.
Then as I grew older, there is this new version : I'm being reduced to a small person on a pool table. All the balls become really large and suddenly, one of it just rolled towards me. I run towards the pocket (of the pool table) and falls into it. I wake up in cold sweat.
It's funny dream right? I don't know, but I still get them once in a while when I'm running a high fever.
71 Vendetta - Swearing girls, I swear
Have you ever heard a girl utter uncouth words, I mean real uncouth.
Thrice every week, I would go Bishan park for a run. There's a Pub there (Sin Ming side) and I always see 2 girls (18-20+) working there with the boss. It's situated beside the toilet.
Today as usual, after the run, I was heading towards the toilet for a change of clothes. The girls were moving the chairs out and accidentally dropped them onto the floor. These were the words that I heard "You, Kam L*n ah, buay hiao bua Gao Yi." The other girl replied "Na Be Chi B*, Hor gao gan lan."
I was shocked and felt utterly shameless for those girls. Such uncouth words that can be uttered from girls that young. The real meanings of those words were "You, cocksucker, don't you know how to move the chairs" and "Hey, Your mother's Pussy get F*#ked by a dog"
What if they were your daughters? The girls are someone's daughter, girlfriend, and will become someone's wife and mother. What kind of society are we breeding? I don't know, you tell me.
70 Vendetta - The Old Lady By The Road
Would you help a helpless old lady if she needed help?
I was driving today along AMK Ave 3 and saw an old lady pushing a big trolley full of rubbish and cardboards. She happened to drop some plastic bags on the floor and had quite a hard time picking them up as they were scattered over the road. Even though there were passer-bys nearby, they ignored her. I wonder what our society has becomed?
I have been brought up (by values) that we should help old people esp those in need. When I saw that scenario, I wanted to get out of the car to help but couldn't as I could just cause a traffic jam behind me. It's like opportunity costs. One always outweighs the other.
I really fear growing older. What if that was me one day? I really dare not want to know what to think of.
69 Vendetta - Technology Kills Traditions
How have we advanced through the years.
Remember pager services? Numbers can be used to represent certain expressions like 7734-2-09 (Go to hell in reverse) or 1-177155-4 (I miss you) or 17-31707-1 (I Love U). Then, there's message services. Call the operator and she leaves a written message on your pager.
How have technology advanced through these years. When was the last time you sent a snail mail? I remember when I was in secondary school, I had a penpal from Helsinki, Finland. We wrote to each other for 4 years and even echanged photos. She came to Singapore when I was in Sec4. I went to meet her in Westin and had a great time helping her shop, even though she spoke "OK" english.
Now, I'd probably get a penpal through e-mail which delivers my mail instantly. Then, there's no anticipation anymore and no point in getting a penpal.
Maybe once in a while, we should relive the good old traditional ways.
68 Vendetta - The Beautiful Cars
These are the cars of my time that I would like to own if I had all the money in the world (in no chronological order) :
Mazda RX8
Mitsubishi Evo9
Subaru WRX STI
Subaru Legacy GT
Toyota MRS
Honda Integra Type R
Honda Accord EuroR
Min Cooper S works
Volkswagon Golf GTI
Renault Clio RS
Alpha Romeo 156 GTA
Honda Elysion
Lexus GS300
Lexus SC430
Nissan Skyline GTR
Nissan Fairlady
Toyota Supra GT
Mazda RX-7 efini
Mercedes SL55 AMG
BMW M5
BMW Z4
BMW X5
Porsche GT2/3
Skoda Octavia RS
Toyota Celica SS2
Honda FIT Dynamite
Volkswagon Beetle Turbo
Nissan Silvia S14/15
Mitsubishi Evolution 7 GTA
Peugeot 307CC
SAAB 95LPT
Jeep Grand Cherokee
Landrover Discovery
Actually, that's about it. Maybe will come back to this page 10 years later and see the difference between the cars then and now.
67 Vendetta - Education is getting harder
Do you remember your secondary school maths? It is probably what they are learning in primary school now.
My son and nephew's mathematics level are so high now. One is in P2 and the other in P5. Looking at P5 maths is like looking at my Sec 1 maths. Yes, the level of education is a lot higher now. At least english and chinese are subjects that requires lots of reading to improve, else they would be reading shakesphere by now.
I wonder if by Pre-U, they will be studying my degree subjects by then. Looking at how fast the standard is rising, that is a possibility. So that means I'd need a PHD if I want to continue being employed. That thought is so scary.
Nevertheless, education may be important but I never stress the kids out. If my son cannot get good academic marks, it does not matter. Maybe he is better at some other skills and can be developed in that area of his talent?
Whatever it is, go easy on'em.
66 Vendetta - Dear Friends
My buddies whom we grew up together, where art thou?
I had these 2 buddies whom we knew since secondary. Even after we went separate ways after our 'O' levels, we remain in contact and went out to "chiong" on saturdays. I remember our greatest time was during the Bon Jovi concert. So awesome. As we all got enlisted into army, we lost contact.
Heard Nic went Australia to study after army. Have not heard since.
Went to Rob's father's funeral years ago. Lost contact since.
So, Nic and Rob, wherever you are, I'm trying to look up the both of you and do some catching up.
62 Vendetta - My Bar Code
Generated this bar code that was (generally) for me. Actually, I would like it tattooed onto my left arm or the back of my neck (like bruce willis did in the fifth element). But wonder if the tattoo artist can do an exact replica from this print? So cool, go supermarket can ask them to scan and see what comes out of it.....Hhhmmmm.......
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61 Vendetta - Far From Gracious Society? Never will be there!
We can never reach a gracious society.
When I read a story written by a local blogger, I couldn't help but think that we can never reach a gracious society (like the author saying we are far from it is unrealistic). The story's about seeing adults letting their kids pee in public.
One story said a woman had her son pee into a plastic bag and left it under the table at an outdoor fast-food restaurant. The mother proceeded to have her meal without washing her hands or disposing of the bag. I agree that it was really uncouth and uncivilised.
The 2nd story was about a grandfather letting his grand-daughter squat down and pee near a bus-stop. I must agree that that act is uncalled for as well.
Why do I say we can never reach a gracious society? Cos no matter what happens, there are uncivilised and uneducated parents/adults out there. No matter if it is 20/30/50/100/more years later, there will always be "Ah bengs", "Lo-Muas", "Ah lians", "Ah Huays" who grow up as uncouth individual.
I think the author of the story probably grew up in a middle-income/well-to-do/civilised environment where she's surrounded by educated and civilised people. Take a look around or walk on the uncivilised side of where you live. You see uncles/aunties who grew up without being educated (or rather never had a chance). People who doesn't even know how to read and write. People who swear in expletives in every sentence that comes out of their mouth. People who learn to survive on their own without the "Civilised" way cos the "uncouth" way protects them. These are people around us : the hawkers, the taxi-drivers, the coffee-stall uncle, the fish monger, the vege-seller, etc.......
These people will forever be around cos there will always be uncouth people who remain that way and bring their kids up that way. Then, there are those who'd rather have a broken family and leave their kids to live/survive on their own. And the easiest way out for them is through bad influence. It protects them and feeds their stomach. It is a cycle that can never be changed.
Today, even if you decide to educate everyone in Singapore and decide what is right/wrong to do, do you think everyone will want to change to become more civilised? I don't think any nation/country in this world can ever become a gracious society cos there will always be "ungracious" people around, no matter what race or religion.
60 Vendetta - Hidamari No Tami
Got this "hidamari no tami" in my car. Chills me out when I meet with road-hoggers or speedsters or just "plain dumb" drivers
Actually, I got quite a few, about 5 but I prefer this one more.
59 Vendetta - Identically Yours
Have you found your evil twin?
I always believed that somewhere in this world, there should be someone who looks 95% like me. In fact, if I'm skeptical enough, I may think that it could be my evil twin. Afterall, we all come from 1 father (i.e : Adam)
Don't believe? I have seen with my own eyes. Their only difference is probably their height and family background. Other than that, they both so alike (and not related to each other at all)
Ironic isn't it. But only if you have travelled far and wide would you have seen enough things to amaze you.
