26062005 - Don't Fuckin Control Me Anymore
I've had the most heated argument in my life. I just screwed my mum for screwing my life for the past 29years. For those years, I had lived my life for everyone around me. Fuck them all. Now onwards, I wanna live my life for myself.
Can you imagine being psychologically controlled by someone using money? Do you have to live your life for someone else or make decisions based on other's opinion about you or be swayed by other's opinion?
Today is probably the day that I am born again. I felt born again. A new life has begun. For from today onwards, i will fuckin screw anyone who tries to screw up my life. Like the lyrics in "Get in the ring" by GNR, anyone can fuckin get in the ring with me if they try to screw my life.
My mum is a strategist in my family. She's the one who can fuckin turn your siblings against you by gaining sympathy from them. She's the cunniest fox in the family. I was glad I turned against her today. In fact, it's something that had been accumulated for the past 29 years beofre it burst like a bubble.
My battle has just ended hours ago but I'm afraid today is only the starting of my war. Whatever it is, I don't need to survive myself by facing my family members. I don't need to live for them. I may even leave them all and not see them again if I have to. Whatever it is, I will always protect myself. Go ahead and try to screw me up, and see what I will do. I'm even open to physical threats from my own family members, what else can kill me?
If you want to stop me, you've got to kill me. Don't let me survive. Because whatever does not kill me will only make me stronger.
posted by locks @ 4:08:00 PM
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