04082005 - Down in the gallows
My work load is killing me. I think I really need to find an avenue to relax myself. Everyday, I work till 10pm. Just sorting the store alone is killing me (Yes, I need to sort my store everyday)
I think I really need time to adjust to my current job. I wonder when I'll be overloaded? When will I break? What is my limit? I can't wait to find out.
02082005 - My 4th Tattoo
My 4th Tattoo in Old English 5
28072005 - The Parent Vendetta
I've had enough of my parents esp my mum. She's like the lamest mum around and hopefully she will just stop saying stuffs cos she just simply says the wrong stuff.
So many things to talk about her. No-one bothers. I knew that my sis-in-law just totally ignored her. And now she's divorcd. And that she's living better now. As parents, they are willing to let go of their marriage just like dat?
Will write somemore later...Am really tired now. Fuck that shit, just forget it. Not gonna waste my time writing it.
24072005 - Preview to my next tattoo
Great, I'm getting my next tattoo on the 29th July 2005. I'm so so excited.
Anyways, it's really been sometime since I alst wrote. Guess I really may have to give up writing on this blog. I started on my new job recently and loved the job completely. It's like, taken up 12 hours of my time but I'm having the time of my life now.
Nevertheless, I'll post my tattoo pic again on the 30th July 2005. Stay tuned!
06072005 - Freakin Control
29 years down the road, i have freakin snapped at everyone in the family. Trying to run my life, trying to control my freakin everything! Life sucks doesn't it. And when they can't do anything about it, they pull other people's life into mine and make a hell of a Bullshit about it.
Frankly, all my relatives around me (including my brothers) have now turned against me. I'm like the villian at home. I have 2 reporting parents. The first is "Qin Shi Wang" (daddy) and the second one is "Ci Xi Tai Hou" (Mummy). i don't even know if they can be trusted even though i am related by blood to them. Afterall, they are the ones who turned themselves against me. How much does an outsider know about our situation. Zilch, zero, nada.
Enough is enough liao.I think the best is yet to come but it will. I haven't blow my top.
26062005 - Don't Fuckin Control Me Anymore
I've had the most heated argument in my life. I just screwed my mum for screwing my life for the past 29years. For those years, I had lived my life for everyone around me. Fuck them all. Now onwards, I wanna live my life for myself.
Can you imagine being psychologically controlled by someone using money? Do you have to live your life for someone else or make decisions based on other's opinion about you or be swayed by other's opinion?
Today is probably the day that I am born again. I felt born again. A new life has begun. For from today onwards, i will fuckin screw anyone who tries to screw up my life. Like the lyrics in "Get in the ring" by GNR, anyone can fuckin get in the ring with me if they try to screw my life.
My mum is a strategist in my family. She's the one who can fuckin turn your siblings against you by gaining sympathy from them. She's the cunniest fox in the family. I was glad I turned against her today. In fact, it's something that had been accumulated for the past 29 years beofre it burst like a bubble.
My battle has just ended hours ago but I'm afraid today is only the starting of my war. Whatever it is, I don't need to survive myself by facing my family members. I don't need to live for them. I may even leave them all and not see them again if I have to. Whatever it is, I will always protect myself. Go ahead and try to screw me up, and see what I will do. I'm even open to physical threats from my own family members, what else can kill me?
If you want to stop me, you've got to kill me. Don't let me survive. Because whatever does not kill me will only make me stronger.
15062005 - The ungracious commuters in the train
I just heard a complain from my wife today. She was in the MRT going back to AMK from Town after some shopping. Normally, she brings along my 8 year old son since he's having a holiday. Upon boarding the train, no one gave up their seat to my son or my wife (who is pregnant). She was also carrying a hell lot of things with her. Everyone just simply chose not to see her or sleep or read something.
My son began to tell my wife that his legs are tired and needed a seat. Still, no one stood up. My wife was furious and said these word "Son, remember the society you grew up in. Because you will grow up to be like one of them". As she said that, 2 person stood up and happen to alight at the next station. My son took up one of the seat and guess what? Someone took the seat beside him instead of giving it to my wife.
I remember my time in Hong Kong, Japan, U.K or even Australia. People would never hesitate to give up their seats to kids or pregnant women. It is common courtesy.
I look at this incident and sigh at the kind of society we're breeding here. We're becoming like Chinese (from China) and they are becoming like us. It's like a switch of identity between them and us. Soon, 10 years down the road, they would have overtaken us economically. And that's just a conservative estimate of timing.
Most importantly, being kiasu will ultimately get us nowhere. It just makes more jerks and spoils more days. Kiasu does not help in any ways at all, whether economically, mentally, physically, spiritually or any way that is positive.
